Plus One
July 30, 2013

So now we are plus one–and the whole world has changed. After being basically two adults (well, mom and son with whatever dynamics that entails when son is in mid-20’s), we are now adults with a baby/toddler. Today is a low energy day for mom/grandma here and time is being allowed for me to actually think about this…
There haven’t been too many opportunities for low energy days–adding one more person who has a radically different schedule to accommodate, different nutritional needs, different sleep needs–it requires a lot of energy and adaptability. Of course that is falling most heavily on my son but also on me too.
But then there is her adorable Fireball personality–her total drama queen expressions from delight to despair which can fluctuate in a moment. Her infectious smile and laugh, her attempts at new vocabulary words–from “owl” to “Dexter”, her eyebrows that raise as she gulps her milk, her bursts of tears with hands to her forehead as something is just too dire for her to handle (which is so funny to watch it is hard to be appropriately sympathetic)–
She may be plus one but she brings a million new facets to our lives…

Preparing–
June 6, 2013

      Trying to get ready for not sure what and not sure when–Son is working on the process of becoming parental unit to Fireball but not a clear idea of what the continuum is or where the finish line is–  Meanwhile having her on the weekends, presumably until his daycare can officially enroll her–not that they offered daycare as a choice for me when I felt unable to take her full time–

      Rose will be here Sunday night to begin our summer journey of one week on and one week gone–looking forward to her Sunshine presence but still at a loss at exactly how to synthesize her time with Fireball’s–  Have had some practice on the weekends but wonder what it will be like if/when Fireball is here full time.  Will there be jealousy, instead of eagerness now about her “sleepovers”?  Will sharing previously owned clothes/toys/books lose it’s luster?  Will she feel displaced by the “newer model”?  Will daycare for Fireball seem more exciting than spending time with Grandma?

       And how will Grandma hold up here?  The past year has held such huge loss that was so debilitating and now there is restoration but somehow the energy to deal with it seems so insufficient.  I never expected this outcome at all and I am still at such a loss at how to deal with it.  I love Fireball so much and yet to trust in the fact that her presence may well become part of my daily existence is still an overwhelming thought—that I am at a loss at how to prepare for–

Summertime with the Sunshines–
June 26, 2012

Hard to believe three months without a post but being grandma times two continues to be a challenge as well as a joy–My Rose is growing and thriving thru the year of being three (my, at least up til now, favorite age of childhood–I seriously believe it is the best year) and Fireball is 3 1/2 months.  Rose continues to be my ever sunshine and Fireball appears to be following in that path also, though she has a “melt steel” look in her repertoire that makes me definitely question what I was saying to have that glare directed at me.

     They are indeed warm, sweet, beautiful little girls, in my grandma opinion, but I think they are much like icebergs with a great deal of them that is beneath the surface–the story going on behind the story.  I pray for them constantly that they will be able to come to terms with all that entails with the strength of personality that I see them both exhibiting.   Even a new playmate who struggled with pronouncing my Rose’s name ended up morphing it into “Angel”–seeing something that I knew was in her, though I never saw it in her name before.  The prayer that goes into these radiant sunshines to have them dazzle so brightly has always been answered with a resounding “Yes!” and I trust that God will continue to bless the world, as God already has, with their amazing light!

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